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This moment.

This moment, whatever I am doing, seeing, feeling…it will only be this way once.

We go on about the precious moments, the heart felt sighs, starry eyed dreams and the lustful leanings…we all say, sighing softly enchantedly that this moment, will never come again.

It won’t.

This is the time for this moment.

Whatever I feel right now, will change, for better or worse, and other moments will surpass this one, in one way or another.

This moment is the best I have ever known…it shall not happen to me again…this is a common thought isn’t it?

So why is it so hard for us to understand that the reverse is also true?

This moment, this pain, this thought that your world is over, and you just want it all to stop…the soul wrenching misery…this moment is just for now too. It will move on to the mundane, the usual, and someday the joyous and happy.

It will not be speedy, immediate or quiet as it slips by, you will not see things the same again and years from now there will still be tears because this moment is that bad.

You can not undo it, begging for it not to be doesn’t work, and facing the changes this moment wrought might well be more than you can handle.

Years later you can close your eyes and be right back, seeing it all in detail, each horror, and the emotions will be as strong but the difference will not be that you care less, it will be that you are stronger.

I have found a list of horrors, nightmares and abuses, like dominoes they blaze a trail through my life, but there is always the worst, the one that tipped the scales.

Yet each of those dominoes was a moment, some worse than others, unforgettable for it’s harshness and searing scar on the soul, but just as we whisper softly of love, and how this wondrous moment shall never come again, such is true of the bad, the impossible and the devastating.

So as you face that moment, the one before you, tearing the heart apart, destroying the peace or tearing the loved one from your life, remember it is a moment. However it goes after, it will pass…you will never forget. Yet, as long as you do not lose sight of the fact  it is but a moment, you will not be overwhelmed and surrender to grief, or to being a victim.

Moments do pass.

The ones you wish would last forever, flash by quickly.

The ones you beg not to have to face, seems to dwell forever.

Just keep saying, over and over, under your breath.

“It is but a moment.”

Allow yourself to accept the aimless, empty, sorrow filled days as steps away…or towards…another hopefully pleasant or wonderful…moment.

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